A Shooting Star

I write this column two days before we will experience a full moon. This particular moon, a “full blood moon,” will have a big effect on our emotions, according to a Facebook post I read. Apparently, it has something to do with the total lunar eclipse that’s occurring on the other side of the planet. Some say this astronomical event is having an impact on our energy, too. Maybe this explains why my emotions and energy levels have been a little wacky lately.

I’ve always been interested in the Zodiac and astrology, but I don’t know much about it. I’m a Libra, and Librans characteristically take a long time to make decisions, weighing each different option carefully. This is true for me, and it’s been known to drive my husband crazy. What I do know is for eons people around the world have felt a kinship with the moon and with the changes the moon brings. Scientists point to the moon’s effect on tides and animal behavior. Farmers often make decisions about planting and harvesting based on the phases of the moon.

Someone once told me that it’s best to start new projects during the waxing moon—when it’s moving from new to full—as this is a time when we have good creative energy. During the waning moon, the opposite is said to occur. Our energy is reduced, and our creative impulses are harder to tap into. It’s supposed to be a good time for resting, being more mindful, and engaging in fewer activities. I suppose some will say this is hogwash, but I’m always glad when my deadline falls in the waxing stage.

Even though I’m not much of an expert in the stars and the planets, I am fascinated by watching the sky at night. It’s so vast and mysterious. I love finding constellations and keep saying I need to buy that app that helps you locate them. On the other hand, having my smartphone with me when I look at the stars kind of defeats the purpose of enjoying the night sky—which to me is a way to be present and mindful and awed by nature’s abundant beauty.

Shooting starts are symbolic for many people. In my case, I think they are a form of greeting from my daughter, Sierra, who passed away 28 years ago this month. She drowned when she was 2. It took me many years to come to terms with her death, and the experience changed who I am and the way I look at life. Losing a loved one is the hardest thing humans have to deal with. If you’ve lost a loved one recently, I can feel your pain and I’m very sorry for your loss. That said, I do think it’s true that things get better in time.

Being present in nature helped me find joy again. Being with family and experiencing life kept me from falling into the deep hole of depression. Oh, I was very mad for a while, especially at God, but I grew to understand that there are things we simply can’t understand. It took me some time, but I learned to let the anger and frustration go. Sierra moved on, and I think she wanted me to move on, too. The only other choice was to stay stuck somewhere, and being stuck is not a healthy thing. To me life is about evolving, growing, learning, and accepting the things we cannot change.

So my column about the moon took a detour. That’s OK. That’s why I love writing. It often takes me places I need to go. I always miss Sierra a little more each August since it marks another year since she was here on this earth with me. She’s still here in ways I don’t understand, but I’m always grateful when a shooting star brings me her greetings.

                                                

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Peggy Sijswerda

Tidewater Women Magazine, Editor & Co-Publisher.

Website: www.peggysijswerda.com
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